changing me

Months ago, Fair Oaks Church did a series on CHANGE. Our pastor encouraged us to pray a simple prayer to God, "God, change me." I prayed that and really meant it. I prayed it to points of exhaustion, waiting and waiting for some triumphant crazy change in my life. The truth is I thought I knew how God would change me. I didn't.

I expected God to change me by changing my circumstances in a certain way. I thought if I prayed that prayer, "God, change me" and really meant it that our lives would take a certain path. That's not what happened.

Our lived actually took a different path: one that seems like the easy path, the path I should have wanted. But didn't and, honestly, still don't some days.

That is how God answered my prayer, "God, change me" and is still answering it. And, 'ya know what, I'm still praying it... "God, change me."