I sometimes have a tendency to live in the "what's next" rather than the "what's now." All through college, I couldn't wait to graduate and start my real life. Once I was teaching, I looked forward to being financially secure enough to quit my job and stay at home. Now that I'm at home, I dream about what big thing I could give my life to next. Eric and I are always talking about "what's next." Believe it or not, being a government auditor is not his life's dream. And as much as I love and treasure these years with my kids, I'd like to eventually do something other than change loads of laundry and dirty diapers. But what if this is it? What if this simple, cozy life is all that I'll ever live? That thought challenges me about as much as the idea of living in an African hut. What if the real challenge is living a passionate life throughout the ordinary? What would that look like?
I'll wait and see and hope that if God wants BIG things from me, I'll trust... until then, though, I'll work on living passionately amidst my schedule of cleaning bathrooms on Tuesdays, kitchen on Wednesdays, and floors on Thursdays.
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Hey. I totally get you on this one. I always have little plans for my life but they never turn out how I imagined. So, I am learning finally to take it one day at a time. But it is not easy!
I also do think we need to re-train our thinking on these ideas. There really is no "thing" out there that is bigger than another. They are all important to God. I think we just have skewed perceptions based on lies from the devil. Ha!
on a side note..I was thinking of you the other day when I was realizing that I am so much better with big decisions and having faith in the big choices rather than the little situations that happen throughout the day. Didn't you say you were like that once?
I am exactly that way, Natalie!
I long to accomplish a great and noble task, but it is my chief duty to accomplish small tasks as if they were great and noble.
- Helen Keller
I've had this struggle too. :-)
I have a job I love but I could leave tomorrow - which is a good thing considering I have to in a couple of months. I have followed my husband to 4 states (9 addresses) & two countries then back again. Every time I have to to trust that this is what God wants. No matter how 'big' it is to me, it's bigger to God because my obedience is so important. Being home, being a Mom is huge. Your kids see you in a happy marriage, serving God every day & they will remember that as they mature & God asks for their obedience. How could your life get any bigger?
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